Možná psaní není pro mě, jako spíš je pro ty s těžšími srdci, krásnějšími myšlenkami a grandióznějšími životy.
Možná melancholie k umění nestačí.
Přesto se to však zdá být tím jediným, co mám, a používám často, častěji, než je zdrávo pro zlepšení mého života.

A tak píšu něčím, co se snad dá nazývat krví mé duše.

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Not proud of myself for making this./ EN

18. února 2017 v 12:13 | -DarkSoul |  In dark mind
My heart hurts.

Someone told me it's better to write your thoughts in a different language because you don't carry all that social weight of your first language. I think I know what that means.
Doesn't change anything about me writing total crap here. Nevermind.

My heart hurts. Badly.

It's all that movies, photos, stories and beautiful moments others tell me about. It doesn't matter if it's a happy ending or a tragedy, it is hurting me. Because I am still alone.
Alone.
Alone.
Alone.

I don't want to complain when it's always about the same goddamn thing but why everyone tells me stories about their love and how their heart hurts when they know I never really was in love? Do they know how loneliness can harm an individual like me? (I don't think so)

Why everyone thinks love is the only thing that hurts your heart?

I should not think about this. I should be thankful for what I have.
I should concentrate on not hating myself all the time or figuring out who I really am.

After that, I can be interested in music, books, movies and TV shows. I can do whatever I want. Without all the anxiety, I could really feel free.

Be dead inside...but like in a good way.

I'm losing it again, am I right? Fuck.

 


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1 ordinary girl ordinary girl | Web | 2. března 2017 v 18:01 | Reagovat

did you just? describe my life?
i love this by the way. i love your blog.

2 -DarkSoul -DarkSoul | Web | 3. března 2017 v 16:00 | Reagovat

[1]: i have no idea how did you find this little article (and my blog in general) but thank you so much. :)

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